disillusioned youth.
Wed, Aug. 23rd, 2017 05:54 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
scvdderEvery couple of months, I'll go on a wikipedia binge and get obsessed with one topic and read everything I can about to fill the cracks of my free time for a few weeks. Just recently, I've been getting into grunge (the music, the fashion, the culture), and at other times I've researched hippies and flappers, etc. and yesterday I realised each subculture has just been the form of rebellion for that generation... yet little has come from it. I don't get it. What happened to the hippies and punks? Were they just beaten into submission, coerced into silence because that's how you make it as a middle-class parent?
Honestly of all things, I think I may be most scared of being stuck in a cycle sometimes. It feels like things are on the verge of change: with LGBT rights, feminism and the power of people of rights making a lot of progress but it looks like the same things have happened before. Like LGBT people were doing alright before the 80s and the AIDs epidemic. And economically? We've been living in corrupt systems for decades and the last time any progress was made was a hundred years ago.
Why am I the only one wondering this? Perhaps that's the problem. I didn't mean for this to escalate but fuck, looking at history puts things in harsh perspective. At least I can rely on living to go to space.
EDIT: I can't believe I unconsciously came to the same conclusions as the grunge movement - that life is short and worrying about what other people are doing is a waste of time, hence the apathy. In fact this is precisely what the drummer of Nirvana (forgive me for not knowing his name) said in an interview I recently watched.
But ultimately I don't know what sort of person I would be if I was passive and apathetic to others' suffering. I don't care if I dkn't solve these problems but I am going to fight against economic equality and social equality until my last dying breath. And having hope helps me do so.
Honestly of all things, I think I may be most scared of being stuck in a cycle sometimes. It feels like things are on the verge of change: with LGBT rights, feminism and the power of people of rights making a lot of progress but it looks like the same things have happened before. Like LGBT people were doing alright before the 80s and the AIDs epidemic. And economically? We've been living in corrupt systems for decades and the last time any progress was made was a hundred years ago.
Why am I the only one wondering this? Perhaps that's the problem. I didn't mean for this to escalate but fuck, looking at history puts things in harsh perspective. At least I can rely on living to go to space.
EDIT: I can't believe I unconsciously came to the same conclusions as the grunge movement - that life is short and worrying about what other people are doing is a waste of time, hence the apathy. In fact this is precisely what the drummer of Nirvana (forgive me for not knowing his name) said in an interview I recently watched.
But ultimately I don't know what sort of person I would be if I was passive and apathetic to others' suffering. I don't care if I dkn't solve these problems but I am going to fight against economic equality and social equality until my last dying breath. And having hope helps me do so.
