school blues
Thu, Sep. 14th, 2017 09:44 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
scvdder listening to John Finnemore's Souvenir Programme and trying not to cry is such a big mood. I just simply cannot cope with school. I feel like I'm constantly on the verge of either crying or vomiting.
And I feel so weak for it because everyone graduates school so it shouldn't be such a big problem and I've been through some shit in my life, this should be easy. But it's not. My first exam is in four weeks which is far, far too soon but my last is in two months which is too far away because it means that my life is going to be like this until then. Meanwhile, every time I get upset, my dad wants to have a two-hour long conversation about what I need to do to stop feeling bad and how I should let him help me.
And my theatre teacher said that when he was in high school he only cried once. Me? About every fortnight, if not more often.
I have a test today and a test on Friday and two tests on Monday and I haven't even looked at the other days but there are three more tests in that week. While I need to be dazzling a uni with my (probably nonexisxtent) writing skills.
My dad tells me that life is always going to be like this and I know that's just him trying to help but that makes me want to die.
I don't have ti,me to be this sad. I have too many tests and assignments to have time to be allowed time to be stressed about them. I'm only happy when I'm not me.
And I feel so weak for it because everyone graduates school so it shouldn't be such a big problem and I've been through some shit in my life, this should be easy. But it's not. My first exam is in four weeks which is far, far too soon but my last is in two months which is too far away because it means that my life is going to be like this until then. Meanwhile, every time I get upset, my dad wants to have a two-hour long conversation about what I need to do to stop feeling bad and how I should let him help me.
And my theatre teacher said that when he was in high school he only cried once. Me? About every fortnight, if not more often.
I have a test today and a test on Friday and two tests on Monday and I haven't even looked at the other days but there are three more tests in that week. While I need to be dazzling a uni with my (probably nonexisxtent) writing skills.
My dad tells me that life is always going to be like this and I know that's just him trying to help but that makes me want to die.
I don't have ti,me to be this sad. I have too many tests and assignments to have time to be allowed time to be stressed about them. I'm only happy when I'm not me.
